Let’s try this again….. sorry about the “technical” err, user difficulties😉…
Over the past 11 months a lot of stuff has happened, a lot of firsts and without a drop of alcohol. Events that in the past would have required a drink, or 2 or 4…. you get the idea. The divorce, a breakup, financial strain, birthday parties, summer festivities, class reunion, the day-to-day hassles and hiccups life throws at you, when I used to respond with, “I need a drink!”, and most recently, first dates.
I can proudly and confidently say that I got through the good, the bad, and the ugly with my sobriety intact. To the “normie”(what we alcoholics call the normal social drinker), this may seem like no big deal, but to those of us who are recovering alcoholics, it is a very big deal. As each event or situation comes my way and my sobriety remains intact, my confidence grows, and I grow more peaceful and content within. Spiritual growth perhaps?
When I say confidence, I don’t mean cocky, I am not, nor do I want to become complacent. My sober life today includes a core group of special women, including an awesome sponsor, who I am in constant contact with each and every day. This group has my back always, and vice versa. They will and have called me out on my shit. Going into events or situations, I always have a plan, including exit strategies. I know when to decline an invitation if I don’t think it will be “safe” or comfortable for me. I realize that some may not understand my reasoning, others may be offended, but my sobriety comes first and foremost. Yes, even before my kids, (gasp), because if I do not protect my sobriety, if I decide to test the waters, so to speak, I would jeopardize and most likely lose everything that I have worked so hard to obtain and achieve. The most important being the relationship with my kids.
So as we are in the “throws” of the holiday season, and I am venturing into the world of first dates, I am relying on all the tools I have collected over the last several months. I must say that with each situation and or event that is a “1st” in sobriety, I feel so incredibly grateful and humbled. I did this, I am doing this, and I will continue to do this, God willing. And maybe, just maybe, my experiences, my story, can help another who maybe struggling.
Sobriety aint so bad😊