Memorial Day weekend, 1st official weekend of the summer, pools open, BBQ’s a plenty, 3 day weekend (for many), and was once my wedding anniversary. Would of been 13 years today. Am I living in the past by mentioning this day? It is what it is. Recovery has taught me to respect the past, but do not dwell or live in it. I do not regret my marriage, it produced the 2 loves of my life, the 2 that only truly matter, M&M.
And to think that my addiction nearly cost me my children. My selfishness robbed M&M of their mommy. They did not deserve that. Many memories of this date, as well as many others, are filled with memories both good and bad, many alcohol laced, resulting In missing pieces to those memoires.
So this weekend, including today I created a whole bunch of new memories, without alcohol or dwelling on the past, and in all honesty, I didn’t have to try real hard either.😊
The weekend was filled with laughter, love, family, lots of activity (I’m completely water logged😉), and of course, ice cream.
I had an absolutely amazing weekend with M&M, I’m exhausted, but it’s so worth it! I was (am) present for my kids, and that is what they deserve! A momma who will go down waterslide again and again, who is able to take them for ice cream, and put them to bed, safely and responsibly, as every child deserves. I am so grateful for today, the new memories I have created, and the opportunity to do it all again tomorrow.