I’m at a turning point, I think I have been ‘here’ for a while, but haven’t fully accepted, or maybe haven’t been comfortable with the idea. That may seem a little odd, especially when I reflect on what this post is about…oh progress not perfection… Of course there have been many turning points over the course of my young life. The biggest and most influential becoming a mother, getting married, getting divorced, and admitting I’m an alcoholic and getting sober. I wouldn’t change anything that I have endured over the years. This statement may seem crazy to some, and that’s ok. It’s my life and I own it.
This is my turning point today. I can finally say that I accept me for me. Take it or leave it. I have worked my ass off, not only in my recovery, but with just about every facet of my being. I am not the shy, scared, sad, co-dependent, people pleaser that I was for many many years. I no longer care what others think of me, (besides its none of my business). I don’t have time for pettiness or drama, I spent too many years on that twisted ride. I hope and pray to stay off it. I do my best to live in the 4 Absolutes: Honesty, Unselfishness, Purity, and Love. It’s not always easy, I’m in recovery, not perfect😉.
That being said, if it wasn’t for the program of AA and the journey I started a year and 4 1/2 months ago, and continue on everyday (God willing), I would not be at this turning point. I would not be able to say with confidence that I like me and the woman I am becoming. I’m living in the moment , the best that I can, but I ‘m excited to see what’s in store 😊
Looking back at all the shit I went through and all pain I put my loved ones through I cringe, but seeing me today, it was worth it, and that’s a pretty big turning point!
My name is Katie and I am a grateful recovering alcoholic.